breath and posture

The military industrial complex dwells inside my mind.

a protected, unelected deep ego dwells within me, maintaining control at all costs.  it is not ethical nor does it negotiate.  Its purpose is survival.  it uses all available resources - it diverts necessary functions, even - in order to build defenses and armor and weapons that ensure its survival.

but i don't need it anymore.

I want it to go away.  all the defenses and armor and weapons are holding me back from being giving and loving and open and free and brave.  All these tools exist in my mind for the purposes of defending something that's not worth defending, perpetuating something thats not worth perpetuating.

How do I transition away from this monstrous ego?  how do i let go of these habits of control?

my mind grasps power, my ego reaches for perpetuity.

anatta.  No-self.

How do we experience anatta?  Breath and posture. Fasting.  Meditation.  And service, otherwise known as work.  Challenging habits. Wakefulness.   Relinquishing our addiction to samsara.  We must challenge our habits.  How?

Nilakantha.  Siva blue throat.  Neither accepting nor rejecting.  Mere observation, without reaction.
Awareness.  Equanimity.
hmm.

accept.  resist nothing.  Fear nothing.  Survival is not threatened.  Be free.  Be unafraid.  Take the time, don't react.  The world is illusion, open to now, accept the now, and appreciate the now-

(awaken to breath and posture)